Sunday, November 16, 2008

My TO - DO list fr the next 6-7 months



My to - do

~ Get into NUS and NTU ...UOL i'm already thru
~ Spend days and nights deciding which uni I shld join...NUS or NTU
~ Get straight A's in my last sem.....fr sure in law
~ For god's sake give IELTS this time
~ Try your hand at Harvard's online courses
~ Try doing an internship
~ Read a minimum of 100 buks
~ Finish my driving lesson
~ Get back to my guitar
~ Learn to cook


~~This is a dynamic list nad would be updated quite often~~

Saturday, November 15, 2008

The GAP and the transitions....

Its not the GAP store.....but the gap created in everybody's life at some point of time or maybe at every point of/in time.
You can't leave the windows bare....u need curtains, u can't leave the vases empty...they need flowers....you can't stay alone you need someone in your life..
you have your parents, your friends and most importantly yourself...so why the gap ???
Dunno abt ppl, but i consider myself too young to get into a relationship...i agree its not the right time but the point is, that beyond a limit,I can't do anything about it. Its goes way beyond my control. I won't term it abstinence, but just trying to stay away from what I think I can't handle NOW. 
Its valid also, for if it had to happen it would have happened in the past or maybe sometime now.......but it didnt. I have to accept things, the way they are.
Its cool how ppl are able to mk successful transistions.....I can too and deep down inside I want to buuttt its sheer stupidity to push myself in the ocean, whose depth I can't gauge and moreover when I can't swim. 
Before the gap widens....I better get back home......

Friday, November 14, 2008

Love Story - Taylor Swift

Another track fast climbing my fav's chart....

We were both young when I first saw you 
I close my eyes and the flashback starts 
I’m standing there, on a balcony in summer air 

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns 
See you make your way through the crowd 
And say hello, little did I know… 

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles 
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet” 
And I was cryin' on the staircase 
Beggin' you please don’t go 
And I said… 

"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone 
I’ll be waiting, all there's left to do is run 
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess 
It’s a love story, baby, just say 'yes'" 

So I sneak out to the garden to see you 
We keep quiet, 'cause we’re dead if they knew 
So close your eyes 
Let's leave this town for a little while, 
Oh, oh 

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter, 
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet” 
But you were everything to me 
I was beggin' you, please don’t go… 
And I said 

"Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone 
I’ll be waiting, all there's left to do is run 
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess 
It’s a love story, baby, just say 'yes' 

Romeo save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel 
This love is difficult, but it’s real 
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess 
It’s a love story, baby, just say 'yes'" 
Oh, oh 

I got tired of waiting 
Wondering if you were ever coming around 
My faith in you was fading 
When I met you in the outskirts of town 
And I said 

"Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone 
I keep waiting for you but you never come 
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think" 
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring 
and said 

"Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone 
I love you, and that’s all I really know 
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress 
It’s a love story, baby just say 'yes'" 
Oh, oh 
Oh, oh, oh 

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Monday, November 10, 2008

Random actz of Kindness


It was pouring cats and dogs....or like Alz says " no lah...its jz raining heavily"
I dnt mean to sound like a racist but its my general observation that ppl of my ethnicity , dnt like touching the umbrella...only when the clouds burst wide open....then we opt fr an umbrella ;)
I was coming home frm college later the afternoon today, when it strtd to drizzle.
The usual lazy me , I didnt feel the need to use an umbrella. Just as I was about to cross the road, a gal came running towards me and asked me to share her umbrella with her.
I dont know who she , where she coming from and where she going....how in the world can I share the umbrella with her ????
But before I could even say anything , I found myself sharing the umbrella.
I tried making a conversation with her and voila......she was DMS 1st sem living in the same place and also the same block as me. 
She wasn't ready to leave cz she was worried I wld get worried.I literaly had to force her to leave giving her the assuarence that I won't get wet.....
Why she did that, I don't know......but damn, it touched my heart :))

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Next to you - Jordin Sparks


The song I relate to, for so many reasons...


Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you

Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

I asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was out of your league
What a fool, I got to get next to you, whoa
Yeah it's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Baby let's get together and end this mystery, oh

Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you? 
Yeah, yeah, to want to get next to you

Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Baby call me crazy
But I know you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I got to get next to you 

Friday, October 31, 2008

Searching fr bonds...naming evry relation

tried and tried harder....no answer 
this is my state when it comes to defining bonds with human beings
its thr deep inside me , hw much evr i try i cnt change , amend alter or destroy it.
why shld every bond be tagged...but i feel the need to do it or shld i say i jz do it
it bcums tortures...why the hell shld i go arnd naming evry thing thts between me and another person.....why cnt it be as simple as it is ....y the f*** i end up complicating the whole thing 

Monday, October 27, 2008

Loadz ov disconnected things

yipeee holiday tmrw...damn why do I hate holidays so mch O.o or do i love 'em
dunno..i love thm cz i gt to sleep lyk 16-18 hrs...my state ov aestivation (u cnt really hibernate in sg) but simultaneously hate 'em cz i dnt hv mch stuff to do...sighhhhhh
like ppl ask - "are u kinda demented ?"
my answer - no, i'm not . I am a workaholic and its not cz ov my current state ov being in my coccon...I've always been like this and no matter what, i cnt and wnt change.
gosh,i didnt realise....i hv a business law assignmnt and tutorial due and the one i did wasnt needed to be dealt wif at this point of time...darn 
this weekend i really wasted time or like ppl say chilled out and relaxed...hmm
exactly a year ago, lots of things happened...cant really write abt 'em all bt loads of things happened(takes a deep breath)
i was in bugis yday.....fooling arnd as usual, when i saw arjun...wt a small world it is..
looked cute as usual...man (another deep breath)
i slept fr like 16 arnd hrs today...wao felt gud bt now wide awake...thts y m scribbling in
clue to my schedule...whenever i scribble in..it means m dying of boredom and m jobless
i finally gt in touch with munchkin aftr such a loooong time...i ws missing him soo much...love my munchkin...god bless our frndship
mrids planning to cum to sg fr her undergrad..i hate to be- your guide to admission in sg
f**k, cnt u do sumthing as simple as tht all by urslf
the floor seems to be dead,its almost pin drop silence....wonder whr evrybdy vanished..no points fr guessing must be saving water by living on alcohol in sum corner of sg or gambling playing poker or flash..wateva
m workaholic bt tht doesnt mean u can treat me like a mule
i wrk my ass off fr peanuts, no actually nt evn tht..i hv a threshold n now it is it
ppl r getting a taste of my agitation and it will continue fr a while...


Saturday, October 25, 2008

Desperate birds and bees...bzzz

For the sake of things...how more weird can they get ???
At times its better to stand at the shore rather then plunging into uncertain waters 
Why....coz thats whats right for you at the moment.
After spending a substantial amount of time on the shore, all that i have to say is that " i'm lovin' it"....lol( m sitting in mcd, you see )
But on a serious note , u'll love it too .
You laugh when people mess up , you get to learn to learn from their errors and you get to wet your toes too....
ooopppssss........m degreasing from the point
so like the title goes....my fellow homo sapiens seem to be damn damn desperate and tht too for what....***
c'mon fellas...its not the end to the world....grow up
how bloody materialistic can you possibly be......live it day by day, moment by moment
dont rush....again dont rush
in someone's words - " i cldn't sleep on my bed alone"
k fine, i agree it happens but that doesnt mean.....
i dunno wt to say..its hw u see may be
the extremities of life ...one hand ppl dont have partners while on the other others change partners like movies change every friday in bollywood
its strange that i was living in such a cocoon....bloody hell..at times i really wonder..o.O
where do i come from....which world was i living in.....there's nothing wrong, nothing right and defining your rights and wrongs doesnt come easy in this jumbled,complicated and messed up world......

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

The brkdwn ov my lyf in last 12 months !!

DUH....how can ??? Seriously I dont know...how can
The last one yr spent in lah ~ lah land, is categorised sem wise.
When I look back and trace the past events,I always see it sem wise as if its my progress report..LOL
Each sem's brought with it some good and some bad but loads of lessons, consistently...
umm...the next few posts are gonna be me and my sem'd lyf...weird


Thursday, September 11, 2008

The b!te of real!ty

If everything u wish for...zzzzzaps to life....u wldnt ask for more.Movin' out ov my sheltered and protected den has never and shall never ever come easy for me.The ocean might be calm at the top but you cant predict the intensity of the ripples beneath..In the bat of an eyelid, I was where I always wanted to be..Like I said, I cldnt ask for more. And with this change, I embarked on a new journey....one where I made mistakes but had nobody to correct them for me like in the past...
With a zillion things to juggle...the only place that I found solace was in the company of new homo sapiens whom I met every new day. Good , weird , smart, confused, visionary, hardworking...all sorts of homo sapiens... I wanted to carve my niche but before that I wanted to find my new comfort zone. Strange enough, a f**ked up person could come to your rescue. How , when and most importantly WHY... I have no answer for these questions, but I met this homo sapien and then is when I realised that my journey just started and the only words that escape my lips now are - "oh shit , I didnt see all this coming"

Wonder y I strtd bloggin' o.O

Well...there are mainly two reasons for me to start blogging.....Very much like my own self , other fellow homo sapiens fail to prove themselves as competent ears for all that I got to talk , yell n scream about , day in and day out....so blogging is a way to Xpress all that I have to convey...here atleast I dont have any hopes...even in the deepest corner of my heart for any kind of reciprocation..Second......to be in sync with technology
In terms of english literature , writing a diary has been a part of my lexicon since I can remember..So a couple of days back, when I was staring at the 'whiteness' of my room's ceiling the thought of technologizing the habit of my diary writing struck me...and so here I am blogging in the midst of my so quite and peaceful sem break....